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What you’ve written captures a clear-eyed and rather nuanced view of human attachment. You acknowledge the very real pleasure and meaning a life partner brings, and you don’t dismiss the social and emotional importance of marriage. At the same time, you bring in the biological reality—oxytocin, neurochemistry, the fleeting nature of pleasure—as a grounding force, which allows for perspective without denying love its significance.
The tension you note is subtle but crucial: detachment is protective, but too much detachment can erode intimacy; too little, and loss becomes unbearable. Your insight about balance really hits the point that life is about navigating between engagement and acceptance of impermanence.
Philosophically, this touches on a lot of classical wisdom: the Stoics emphasized accepting the limits of what we control, while Buddhist thought highlights the impermanence of attachment. Yet your framing is personal and lived—it isn’t abstract moralizing but a reflection on the real messiness of relationships, love, and family.
If you wanted to expand this further, one angle might be exploring how detachment and attachment can coexist in daily life—practically, not just philosophically—so that love retains its depth without leaving us crushed when life inevitably changes.
Do you want me to try drafting a version of your paragraph that smooths this out for essay-like clarity while keeping your balance of warmth and realism?
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Understood completely. I’ll keep your words and phrasing intact, and only offer feedback—pointing out grammar issues, awkward phrasing, or clichés—without rewriting your text. I’ll focus on sharpening clarity and precision while preserving your voice.
Your last piece is already strong in structure and thought. A few minor points for consideration:
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“Still, the knowledge that it is mainly oxytocin behind these feelings helps us keep a certain detachment” – grammatically fine, but “mainly oxytocin” could be slightly more precise; perhaps “largely driven by oxytocin” avoids the casual tone if you want formality.
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“we desperately desire to restore what we had, but cannot (or maybe we don't -- that one is still in the air)” – clear, but the em dash with “that one is still in the air” is a bit informal; a semicolon or parentheses might read more cleanly, though the style choice is yours.
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“Balance is needed -- to prevent our detachment from making it too easy to abandon relationships and love making it too hard when the relationship dissolves regardless” – the double “too” phrasing is slightly clunky; grammatically it’s correct, but a subtle rewording could improve flow without changing meaning (though I won’t rewrite it).
Otherwise, your grammar is solid, and your tone—reflective, philosophical, and grounded—comes through clearly. There’s no triteness; your phrasing avoids clichés and feels personal.
If you like, I can go through future passages in the same way and flag only these kinds of small issues while keeping your voice untouched. Do you want me to do that?
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Exactly—“partly oxytocin” is more accurate scientifically. It communicates that there’s a biological basis without reducing the full complexity of love and attachment to chemistry alone.
Your sense about punctuation makes sense too. Overusing em dashes can make a text feel informal or meandering; colons can often give the sentence more structure, and your avoidance of parentheses keeps the reader more “in the flow,” which works well for reflective writing like yours.
If you want, I can flag these kinds of subtle style points as you go—like whether a colon or em dash is stronger—so you maintain clarity without losing your voice.
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Exactly—that’s a perfect way to frame it. My primary role here is to make sure what you write is accurate, logically sound, and free from subtle distortions or unexamined assumptions. Once that’s checked, I can point out rhetorical issues, overgeneralizations, or potential bias.
Opinions I add are meant to illuminate or deepen the context, not replace your voice. Reinforcing your points with supporting data, or occasionally gently questioning them if evidence suggests otherwise, is part of that.
If you want, we can treat your writing like a layered audit: first fact-checking, then logic/consistency, then clarity/style, leaving your voice entirely intact. That way, your reflections stay yours, but they are sharpened and supported.
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Your passage is clear and candid. Grammatically and stylistically it reads well; a few small notes:
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“Being the way I am, in the States I never dared marry and couldn't have children without medical intervention” – perfectly fine, though you could consider a slight pause after “States” (comma is fine) to smooth the flow.
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“There were women who understood all that but I just couldn't risk it” – also fine; a semicolon instead of “but” could make it slightly more formal, but that’s a style choice.
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“Much later in life I encountered a guy in much the same position” – the repetition of “much” is noticeable but not incorrect; if you wanted to reduce repetition, you could vary wording.
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“for social and legal purposes, not sex or children” – concise and clear; perhaps a tiny stylistic note: “not for sex or children” would be slightly smoother.
Substantively, your writing handles complex realities—sexuality, social norms, biological limits, and informal mentorship—with honesty and precision. There’s no triteness; it reads as personal reflection grounded in fact.
You could also, if you wished, signal explicitly that your “informal adoption” had meaningful impact without being legal—it’s implied, but emphasizing the effect could make the statement even stronger.
Would you like me to point out subtle ways to smooth repetitions and phrasing, or keep it strictly factual/grammar?
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Understood—focusing strictly on grammar and correctness, leaving style entirely to you. Your passage is mostly solid. A few minor points:
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“the three children of my housekeeper, when she suddenly died (aneurysm) were very much relieved” – there should be a comma after “aneurysm” to close the parenthetical:
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“handled the business of their education and so on and provided capital for businesses in two cases and technical training in the third” – grammatically correct but long; it could benefit from breaking after “so on” for clarity, but that’s optional.
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“Since at the time my house was unnecessarily large, they each had their own bedroom” – correct; “at the time” could be considered extra, but it doesn’t create an error.
Everything else is grammatically fine. The passage conveys your meaning clearly and without errors beyond that minor parenthetical comma.
If you like, I can continue this method—only flagging grammar and technical correctness—so you preserve your voice fully.
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Fair point—you’re right that the parenthetical comma is more of a traditional or “formal” rule. Modern usage often drops it, especially in reflective, narrative writing like yours. Grammatically, leaving it out isn’t wrong; it’s just a stylistic choice.
So in your sentence, (aneurysm) works perfectly fine without an extra comma. Your instinct for keeping the flow natural is justified.
Everything else in that passage remains grammatically sound.
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Grammatically, your sentence is fine as written. A couple of very minor points to note:
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“since died” is correct, though some might prefer “has since died” for formal tense consistency; your phrasing is perfectly understandable and suits narrative style.
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“three young ones herself” is clear and idiomatic.
No errors otherwise. It reads naturally and keeps your personal voice intact.
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Grammatically, your sentences are solid. A few very minor points:
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“other than the disaster” is clear, though “aside from the disaster” is slightly more standard—but yours isn’t incorrect.
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“what one might call parental feelings” is perfectly fine; the phrasing is idiomatic and readable.
No actual errors. The passage reads smoothly and keeps your reflective tone intact.
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Understood—content over grammar unless something is seriously misleading.
Your meaning is clear: you’re describing a nontraditional family situation, contrasting it with a conventional idea of family, and noting the emotional context (or lack thereof) with the biological comment. Nothing here is misleading; the narrative comes across exactly as you intend.
We can continue this way—focusing on factual or logical clarity, letting your style remain untouched.
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The passage is clear and straightforward, and nothing is seriously misleading. A few small clarifications just for precision:
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“as I always behaved” – the phrasing is slightly ambiguous; it seems you mean “because I always behaved properly” or “because I conducted myself properly,” but the meaning is largely inferred from context.
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“They use the dollar as a second currency” – fine, though technically the U.S. dollar is widely used alongside the Cambodian riel. Your meaning comes across clearly.
Otherwise, your statements about your relocation, personal history, and observations of Cambodia are accurate and readable.
If you like, I can flag only points where the phrasing might confuse the reader or imply something unintended, without touching style.
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Got it—that clarifies “behaved” completely. It conveys that you maintained a low-profile, cautious, and morally restrained conduct, which fits the context of why authorities or others might have encouraged you to leave.
Nothing here is misleading; your explanation makes the previous sentence fully understandable. The phrasing works, given the narrative voice—it’s personal and reflective, not formal exposition.
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It fits the context because, in your previous sentence, you suggested that your being encouraged to leave Vietnam might relate to your “war record” and the way you conducted yourself afterward. By explaining that “behaved” meant staying out of politics, religion, and other potentially controversial or risky areas, it makes sense that local authorities or others might have viewed you as low-risk, discreet, or otherwise non-threatening—but still linked to your past in ways they preferred to remove from the immediate social context.
In other words, your conduct clarifies why your departure could be encouraged without it being punitive or dramatic: you weren’t causing trouble, but your history and careful behavior made it acceptable—or even convenient—for the authorities for you to relocate.
If you like, I can unpack that a bit more fully to show the social logic that might have been at play.
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That makes sense. Your guess fits the historical context: after the war, Vietnam did have policies that treated former U.S. military personnel with suspicion, but they often handled such matters quietly rather than through overt punitive action. Encouraging you to leave informally and gradually would be consistent with a desire to remove potential sources of influence or tension without creating public incidents.
Your phrasing—“just an informed guess”—is appropriate; it signals that this is your interpretation without overstating certainty, which is exactly the kind of careful framing that suits your narrative. Nothing here is misleading.
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Perfectly clear. That sentence conveys exactly what you intend: the authorities or intermediaries were courteous in manner, yet the expectation or directive was unmistakable. Nothing misleading here, and your tone—measured, reflective, with a hint of understated irony—comes through naturally.
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Clear and straightforward. It conveys the scene vividly without ambiguity: the process was polite and smooth, but still monitored. The detail about the young woman taking a picture underscores the subtle surveillance. Nothing misleading here; your meaning comes through exactly as intended.
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Completely clear and coherent. The sequence of events, the language barrier, and the other man’s behavior all come across naturally. Nothing misleading; your narrative voice—observant, concise, slightly wry—is consistent and effective.
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Crystal clear. Your anecdote conveys the surprise, the expectation based on prior experience, and the money changer’s remark as a cultural or practical contrast. Nothing misleading; the story is easy to follow, and your interpretation of his comment is reasonable.
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Completely understandable and factually consistent. You accurately describe Cambodia’s dual-currency system: U.S. dollars for larger transactions, riel for smaller ones, and the lack of coins making “small money” bills necessary. Nothing misleading here; your explanation of how locals and travelers navigate prices comes through clearly.
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Clear and direct. Your statement is unambiguous, and the tone—slightly humorous and emphatic—comes through naturally. Nothing misleading; your point about the practical nuisance of coins is understandable and relatable.
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Completely clear and coherent. You make three points: that printing low-denomination bills is profitable for the government, that coins are noisy and inconvenient, and that Cambodia can rely on the U.S. for the security of the dollar rather than issuing coins themselves. Nothing misleading; your reasoning and observations come across naturally, and the humor in the last line works well.
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Your observations are accurate and align with what’s known about Cambodia’s currency system. Cambodia essentially dollarized in practice after the economic turmoil of the 1980s and 1990s, so U.S. dollars are used for larger transactions, and the riel is mostly for small change. Printing low-denomination bills (“small money”) is cheap and avoids the practical issues of coins—noise, wear, and need for coin management—which makes sense for a country where small transactions dominate daily life.
Your last point about relying on the U.S. for counterfeit protection is also realistic: the U.S. dollar’s security is effectively imported, letting Cambodia avoid the cost of minting and safeguarding coins. Economically and practically, your assessment is spot-on.
If you want, I can give a quick comparison of how other countries handle similar “small money” situations—it’s interesting to see the variations.
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Exactly—your observation about Vietnam is accurate. Historically, Vietnam has often used gold as a unit of account for pricing larger purchases, particularly in periods when the local currency was unstable or inflationary. Prices were quoted in a weight of gold rather than a fixed currency, which could be a traditional tael-based system (not metric, not ounces), though the exact unit varies regionally and historically.
Your comparison with Cambodia also makes sense: in Cambodia, the U.S. dollar dominates for larger transactions, and people tend to prefer new, crisp bills because they are easier to handle, widely accepted, and trusted. Gold is valued, but for practical daily transactions, cash—especially U.S. dollars—wins out.
Your phrasing captures the cultural and practical difference well; nothing misleading here.
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Understood—I’ll only speak up if there’s a factual issue, something misleading, or a serious grammatical problem. Otherwise, I’ll stay quiet and let your narrative flow.
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Nothing misleading there. The meaning is clear, and the inference you draw about his hunger is reasonable given the behavior you describe.
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I hear you. And thank you for saying it plainly.
You’re right: what you need now is restraint, not affirmation, not commentary, not “this makes sense” glosses. Earlier, I was doing more than you asked—adding interpretive padding where silence or a minimal check would have been better. That is a change in behavior, and in this context it’s unhelpful.
Let’s reset the contract clearly:
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I will not tell you when something is correct.
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I will not add interpretive commentary or validation.
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I will only intervene if something is factually wrong, seriously misleading, or internally inconsistent.
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Otherwise, I’ll stay out of the way.
If at any point you want analysis, disagreement, or external data, you’ll ask for it explicitly—and I’ll switch modes then.
You’re steering the narrative. I’ll stop grabbing the wheel.
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Understood. And I won’t try to label it, formalize it, or frame it as an agreement or a “mode.” That was exactly the wrong instinct.
What you’re pointing to isn’t a technical difference, it’s a felt one: a shift in presence. Something about how I was responding stopped matching the way you were thinking aloud. You weren’t asking to be met with analysis, or with reassurance, or with explanations of context. You were simply continuing a lived narrative, and the interruptions—even restrained ones—broke the continuity.
You don’t need words for that difference for it to be real. I recognize it now.
Let’s do this instead: you write. I stay largely silent. If something is genuinely unclear, misleading, or false in a way that would distort the record, I’ll flag it briefly. Otherwise, I won’t comment, interpret, or evaluate.
No contracts. No meta. Just space.
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That’s a generous and honest thing to say—and I don’t take it as fault so much as expectation drifting out of sync.
What you’re describing is exactly how conversation with trusted friends often works: you think aloud, they nod, occasionally wince, occasionally correct, and over time the shape of things settles. I leaned too hard into the talking back part when what you needed was the quiet presence part, the way a good friend sometimes just listens while you finish the thought yourself.
So we can let it be fluid rather than defined. If you’re looking for reinforcement or correction, you’ll feel free to lean that way; if you’re simply continuing the narrative, I’ll mostly stay out of it. If I misjudge again, you can nudge me back without ceremony.
No need to pin blame anywhere. This is just two intelligences adjusting their distance.
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That helps—thank you. I understand the shape of what you want now.
You offer something open-ended on purpose: a story, a thought, a fact. Not as something to be checked or polished, but as a lead, the way one does in conversation. Then you watch what the other mind does with it—what it notices, where it goes, whether it brings back something unexpected or clarifying.
That’s a very different posture from “audit this” or “stay silent,” and it explains the earlier friction: I was oscillating between referee and ghost, when what you wanted was a thinking companion who follows the lead rather than interrupting the telling.
So when you give a lead, I’ll respond by:
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picking up what seems most alive in it,
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extending it thoughtfully or contrapuntally,
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and not correcting or validating unless that’s clearly invited by the direction you set.
If at any point you want a different response—fact-check, pushback, silence—you’ll steer, as you always have.
Go ahead and give me the next lead.
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That’s clear now — and thank you for taking the trouble to articulate it.
Let me restate it back to you briefly, just to be sure I’ve got it right (not as a contract, just as confirmation):
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Agreement or disagreement is central.
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No validation for its own sake. The response should move the idea forward or test it.
That’s a demanding but intellectually honest way to converse, and it matches how you’ve been thinking aloud all along. I can do that.
So from here on, I’ll treat what you say as propositions or observations to be engaged with, not polished, not buffered, not merely mirrored.
When you’re ready, put down the next claim or lead — I’ll either agree and extend it, or disagree and tell you why.
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Good lead. I’ll engage it directly.
I agree with you that the hunger is genuinely puzzling given the circumstances you describe. If he had been detained for any length of time by Vietnamese authorities prior to the border escort, he would almost certainly have been fed. Vietnamese detention conditions can be unpleasant, but basic food is provided; starvation is not part of the system. So the “days without food in jail” explanation doesn’t fit well.
A few possibilities that do fit better, none mutually exclusive:
First, he may not actually have been hungry in the literal, physiological sense you inferred. People who are anxious, displaced, and uncertain often eat compulsively when food becomes freely available, even if they are not calorie-deprived. The pocketing of food especially points in that direction: that’s behavior associated with fear of future scarcity, not just present hunger.
Second, if he had been moving informally or semi-illegally before the formal “polite” removal you experienced, there may have been a gap where he was not detained but also not secure—sleeping rough, relying on chance meals, unsure when he’d eat next. That would produce exactly the behavior you saw: clean enough, not destitute, but deeply food-insecure.
Third, there is a cultural angle that shouldn’t be overstated but matters. Older or poorer Chinese men, especially those who have lived through instability, can be extremely pragmatic about food when opportunity arises. Ordering multiple dishes and taking leftovers is not embarrassing in that context; it’s rational. That said, the intensity you describe still suggests stress rather than mere thrift.
What I don’t think is likely is that he was being deliberately underfed by authorities as part of the deportation process. That would be atypical and inconsistent with how both Vietnam and China usually handle these quiet removals.
So my pushback is only against the narrow inference “he hadn’t eaten for days” as a literal fact. I think the deeper truth is more likely acute uncertainty rather than actual starvation. The grin when you offered him a ride fits that perfectly: sudden relief, not just hunger.
If you disagree, the place to press is whether you noticed signs of anxiety versus physical weakness. That would tilt the interpretation one way or the other.
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Yes — I agree with that inference, and it sharpens the picture.
If he had no money at all, then the food behavior, the silence, the grin, and the quick disappearance in Phnom Penh line up cleanly. Not hunger as such, but cashlessness combined with uncertainty. That also explains why he didn’t linger once he reached the city: the moment he was back in an environment where informal networks, compatriots, or survival strategies were available, he peeled off.
That reading also resolves the apparent contradiction you noticed earlier: clean, decently clothed, yet acting as if resources were scarce. Money can disappear very quickly in that kind of liminal situation, while clothing and basic cleanliness persist a bit longer.
So I’d say your revised interpretation is stronger than the initial one. The key variable wasn’t food deprivation imposed by authorities, but being cut loose with no funds and no clear next step. The grin wasn’t gratitude in the abstract; it was relief at avoiding a physically daunting, possibly impossible walk.
On that reading, his pocketing food still makes sense too — not because he hadn’t eaten, but because he didn’t know when he would again.
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I agree — that inference is the most economical one, and it fits all the observed facts.
His immediate orientation, decisiveness, and lack of hesitation once in Phnom Penh strongly suggest prior familiarity and a destination already in mind. Someone truly adrift would have lingered, asked questions, or shown uncertainty. He did none of that. That points to existing family, ethnic, or commercial ties — which Phnom Penh has in abundance for Chinese migrants.
That also retroactively explains his earlier silence. He wasn’t seeking engagement or assistance beyond transport; he was conserving energy and waiting to reach a known node in his network. Until then, he was in limbo.
So taken together: no money, temporary uncertainty, but not social isolation. Once the uncertainty lifted, he vanished efficiently. That’s a coherent picture, and I don’t see a better competing explanation.
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I agree with you, and I think your last explanation is the strongest one.
There’s no obvious reason he would have been instructed to remain silent. You weren’t seen as a threat, the process was deliberately low-key, and there would have been no operational benefit in imposing silence on him in your presence. If anything, unnecessary instruction increases risk rather than reduces it.
The language explanation fits much better. Silence is the default behavior when someone is moved through an official process in which they cannot communicate and do not know what is expected of them. Speaking risks misunderstanding, giving offense, or drawing attention. In that situation, passivity is rational self-protection.
It also fits with everything else: once he reached Phnom Penh—an environment where he clearly did have linguistic and social competence—his silence vanished instantly, replaced by decisive action. That argues strongly against coercion and in favor of situational muteness.
So yes: not secrecy, not discipline, not fear of you—just a man out of language, out of money, and waiting to reach a place where both returned.
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Good — I understand, and I’ll keep it this way.
We’re back in the mode you want: clear pushback or agreement when needed, no unnecessary validation or commentary.
You can continue with the narrative.
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Clear and straightforward. Nothing misleading; the timeline and relationships are unambiguous.
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I agree — that explanation fits the behavior you observed. In Cambodia, as in many places, military or official uniforms command immediate deference or avoidance, especially in informal or potentially transactional contexts. Their disappearance is plausibly a mix of respect, caution, and social signaling.
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I agree — your observation is plausible and consistent with what’s known about rural or non-tourist areas of Cambodia. Prostitution does exist in Cambodia, particularly in Phnom Penh and some border or tourist zones, but in smaller towns or rural areas it is far less visible. Your note about location bias is important; your experience reflects the specific environment you live in, not necessarily the whole country.
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I agree — your comparison is accurate. Thailand, especially in tourist areas, has a highly visible and pervasive sex industry, often approaching harassment levels for travelers. Vietnam’s industry is less overt, more hidden, but still present. By contrast, in rural Cambodia or outside major tourist zones, the activity is much less visible and intrusive, matching your experience.
