Parody

I see "The Onion" filed an amicus with the Supreme Court defending our right to parodize without announcing that it is parody.

Yes, and the argument is actually stronger than it sounds at first glance.

The case involved Anthony Novak, who created a fake Facebook page mimicking the police department in Parma, Ohio. He was arrested, later acquitted, and then sued the police. The legal question eventually reached the Supreme Court in the context of qualified immunity and free speech. 0search28

That is actually a very old principle in satire. Consider . The essay only works because, for a few moments, the reader is expected to wonder whether the author is serious. If the title had been "WARNING: THE FOLLOWING IS SATIRE," much of the force would be lost.

The Onion's brief made a deeper point: parody is not merely entertainment. It is a form of criticism. To criticize an institution from the inside, you imitate its voice and mannerisms, then expose its absurdities. Requiring an upfront disclaimer would weaken one of the oldest rhetorical tools in political discourse. parody. the attention the brief received, the Supreme Court ultimately declined to hear Novak's appeal.

As a matter of literary history, I suspect Swift, Voltaire, and many other satirists would have agreed with The Onion's central point: if satire must identify itself before the reader can be fooled, it loses much of its power.

This is a tough one. With reasonable intelligence and a certain amount of thick skin, one sees parody and appreciates it, but one might just tell lies and then later in the slander suit claim parody.

That is exactly the tension.

The law generally does not protect someone merely because they later say, "I was joking." Courts look at whether a reasonable person would understand the statement as asserting actual facts. If I publish "The mayor embezzled a million dollars from the city treasury," that looks like a factual claim. Calling it satire afterward will not help much.

On the other hand, if I publish an article saying that the mayor has announced a plan to replace all traffic lights with trained squirrels carrying colored lanterns, most readers will recognize that no factual assertion is being made. The absurdity is part of the signal.

The difficult cases are the ones in the middle. Good satire often imitates reality closely. Jonathan Swift's famous A Modest Proposal argued that poor Irish families should sell their children as food. Today we recognize it instantly as satire, but some contemporary readers were reportedly shocked. The power came precisely from how closely Swift mimicked the tone of serious policy pamphlets.

American defamation law has wrestled with this for decades. One important case was Hustler Magazine v. Falwell. A parody advertisement implied that the minister Jerry Falwell had engaged in outrageous conduct. The Supreme Court protected the parody because no reasonable reader would have believed the story described actual events.

The legal test is therefore not "Did the author call it parody?" but something closer to "Would a reasonable reader understand this as factual?" That is an imperfect standard, but any alternative has problems. If every parody required a warning label, much satire would become toothless. If every false statement could be defended by uttering the word "satire," defamation law would collapse.

Your observation points to a broader issue of modern media. In Swift's day, a reader usually encountered satire in a recognizable literary context. Today, a screenshot gets detached from its source and flies around social media. A parody that is obvious when viewed on its original page may look like a genuine news report when stripped of context. That makes the line harder to draw than it was when The Onion's predecessors were publishing in pamphlets and newspapers.

In a sense, the law is trying to distinguish between deception as an artistic device and deception as the objective. The first is satire. The second is fraud, defamation, or misinformation. The trouble is that from the outside, they can sometimes look very similar.

You've put your finger on a real criticism of the "reasonable reader" approach.

The law does not literally require absurdity, but absurdity is one of the easiest ways to signal that a work is not making factual claims. The more realistic and subtle the parody, the more it risks being mistaken for an assertion of fact, and therefore the less certain its legal protection becomes.

In fact, some of the best satire is not absurd at all. It works because it is almost plausible. A satirist may take a real tendency, policy, or attitude and push it only slightly beyond its current form. The reader's moment of uncertainty is often the entire point. If the joke is obvious from the first sentence, the satire loses some of its bite.

This is why courts do not usually ask only, "Was it ridiculous?" They also look at context. Was it published in a satirical magazine? Did it imitate a known genre of parody? Would readers familiar with the publication understand what was going on? The Onion benefits from having a long-established reputation as satire. A random website that looks exactly like a local newspaper but publishes false accusations against a private citizen will get a much less sympathetic hearing.

Still, there is a genuine tension. Some legal scholars argue that modern defamation law can unintentionally favor broad, obvious satire over subtle, sophisticated satire. A piece that is screamingly absurd is safe; a piece that closely imitates reality may be artistically better but legally riskier.

There's also a philosophical problem lurking underneath. Satire often succeeds because it reveals that reality itself has become hard to distinguish from parody. When readers encounter a satirical headline and ask, "Wait, is this real?" that confusion may be exactly the social criticism the author intends. Requiring satire to be unmistakably identifiable can blunt that effect.

I suspect this is one reason The Onion was willing to spend effort on the issue. Their strongest work often isn't the stories about impossible events. It's the stories that make you pause for two seconds because they sound disturbingly plausible. If the law only protected the obviously ridiculous, much of that tradition would be weakened.

A lot of parody is also deliberate bad taste, and I fear that my serve to prejudice judges against them.

That fear isn’t unfounded, but it’s a bit more complicated in practice.

Judges are human, so yes—material that feels offensive, crude, or in “bad taste” can create an emotional reaction. But in defamation and First Amendment–type cases, courts are generally trained (and explicitly required) to try to bracket that reaction and ask a narrower question: what would a reasonable reader think this is claiming? Not do I like this? or is this offensive?

Bad taste, by itself, is not supposed to reduce protection for speech. In fact, a lot of protected satire is deliberately offensive. Think of cases like Hustler Magazine v. Falwell—the parody there was vulgar and personally insulting, and the Court still protected it precisely because the Constitution doesn’t condition speech protection on good manners.

Where things get tricky is not “bad taste” versus “polite satire,” but bad taste that also muddies the factual signal. If something is both offensive and looks like it might be asserting real-world facts about a real person, then a judge has to separate two questions that can get psychologically tangled:

First, is there a reasonable factual implication here?
Second, is there actual malice or defamation elements met?

The law tries to keep those conceptually distinct, but you're right that in practice, visceral reactions can bleed into judgment calls—especially in borderline cases.

There’s also a subtle asymmetry: satire that is obviously absurd but offensive is usually safe. Satire that is subtle, plausible, and directed at identifiable individuals is where risk concentrates. So the legal system isn’t really rewarding “good taste”; it’s rewarding clarity of non-factualness. That’s a different axis.

One more wrinkle: courts are aware of this problem and often explicitly warn against it. Opinions in these cases frequently emphasize that constitutional protection would be meaningless if it depended on whether speech was “respectable.” The legal ideal is closer to: even ugly, mean, or shocking expression is protected—so long as a reasonable observer would not treat it as a statement of fact.

So your concern identifies a real human factor, but the doctrine is designed—imperfectly, but deliberately—to resist exactly that kind of prejudice. The tension never disappears entirely; it just gets managed through the “reasonable reader” standard and contextual analysis rather than through taste judgments.

If anything, the deeper problem in the modern world is less judges getting offended, and more readers actually being unsure in a fragmented media environment. That’s where satire starts to run into structural, not moral, ambiguity.

As I understand the case at hand, the statements were so outrageous no one sensible would believe them. Still, clearly there were those who did.

That’s the uncomfortable edge of the whole doctrine.

In the Novak / “fake police Facebook page” situation tied to the Supreme Court filing involving Anthony Novak and the police department in Parma, Ohio, the core legal idea wasn’t “nobody was fooled in fact.” It was closer to “would a reasonable observer be fooled, given the context?”

The account did things like mimic the structure, tone, and branding of an official police page. Some posts were clearly absurd or comedic, but others were only lightly exaggerated versions of real public-safety messaging. That mixture is exactly what makes these cases legally interesting and socially messy: satire often works by blending the familiar with the slightly wrong.

So yes, you’re right in the empirical sense: some people did take it seriously. That happens with a surprising amount of satire, especially online where context gets stripped away. But legally, that alone is not decisive. Courts don’t use a “no one was fooled” test, because that would punish even clearly protected speech if a few inattentive readers misunderstood it.

Instead, they ask something like: was the work such that a reasonable person, encountering it in context, would understand it as parody rather than a factual assertion by the speaker? That “in context” part does a lot of heavy lifting.

This is also why reputation and medium matter so much. A known satirical outlet like The Onion gets more protection in practice because its audience already has a strong expectation set. A fake page mimicking an official government account starts in a much more dangerous position, because the default assumption of readers is “this is authoritative.”

So you end up with a kind of paradox you’ve noticed implicitly: the more effective the imitation, the more likely misunderstanding becomes—and the more legally precarious it can be, even if the creator intends it as parody.

And your last point is the key philosophical discomfort: law is not protecting satire because it is always understood correctly. It’s protecting it because we accept that misunderstanding will happen, and we’d rather tolerate some confusion than build a rule that forces satire to advertise itself in advance.

That’s a tradeoff, not a clean solution.

Believers

The temptation to give in to what we want to be true is so strong and gives us such joy that the mistake gets buried in the emotion.  

I remember in my college days there was an argument over whether the "big bang" or "steady state" universe was the correct view, and I really liked the steady state view.  The big bang seemed contrived and seemed to raise more problems than it solved.  So I came to believe it but as science progressed I realized how wrong I had been and look back at it as a case of my allowing my desires (philosophical inclination) to get the better of me where I should have reserved judgment until better data became available.

We are all "believers."  If my boss calls me into his office and tells me I am fired, I had better believe it and seek another job 'cause paychecks are not going to continue.  It would seem the ability to believe has its use.

But we must apply critical thinking to what we believe.  Critical thinking is among other things the skills enabling us to see through the tricks and devices of con artists, and the first skill needed is the humility to admit that the magician knows the trick, but you don't.  Therefore, before believing that the guy can bend spoons it is good to study some professional magic and see what tricks can be used to do the same thing, and then observe whether those tricks are being used.  Studying critical skills is the same as studying such professional magic, but applied instead to the realm of what we will believe.

One example I might mention regarding religion -- all the prophecies about Jesus that supposedly came true (mostly this derives from the book of Matthew, who was the main pusher of this idea).  If you study critical thinking, you learn that there is such a thing as "stacking the deck," which is shorthand for claiming things that on the surface look true but where details are left out that have a different effect.  Thus, when one looks at the prophecies carefully, one finds all kinds of problems with them.  In some cases they weren't prophesies at all; in other cases they had other fulfillments; in other cases the story is constructed to make a fulfillment seem as though it happened.
Calibrated intellectual engagement with hermeneutical and epistemological nuances

The steady-state/Big Bang case is a good one because it shows the trap operates even on people who are actively trying to think well. You weren't being lazy — you'd looked at both models and the Big Bang genuinely did seem to import an uncomfortable amount of "and then something happened for no reason" into physics. Steady-state was more aesthetically satisfying. The error wasn't in noticing that; the error was letting the aesthetic preference function as evidence. And the thing that eventually corrected you wasn't your own better judgment, it was the CMB in '65 forcing the issue. Which points to something worth separating out: the belief was correctable because the domain had a mechanism for correction independent of anyone's preference. That's the real difference between the useful kind of "believing" (the boss telling you you're fired) and the dangerous kind — not whether the belief feels certain, but whether the thing you're forming a belief about is capable of pushing back on you if you're wrong.

That's also, I think, the sharpest version of your magician point. The con works because the performer has engineered a situation where nothing pushes back — you don't get to see the trap door, the stooge in the audience doesn't announce himself. Critical thinking, in that frame, isn't a set of rules so much as the habit of asking "if I'm wrong about this, is there any way I'd find out?" Steady-state theory could answer yes. A rigged prophecy can't, and that's diagnostic in itself.

On Matthew — you're right that it's the worst offender among the gospels for this, and it's worth being precise about which trick is being run, because there are actually two different ones tangled together and they deserve separate treatment.

One is straightforward decontextualization: Hosea 11:1, "out of Egypt I called my son," is Hosea talking about the nation of Israel in the Exodus, past tense, no messianic content whatsoever, and Matthew (2:15) lifts it as a prediction of the infant Jesus's return from Egypt. Isaiah 7:14 is addressed to King Ahaz about a child to be born within his own lifetime as a sign regarding an eighth-century political crisis — the "almah" (young woman) becomes "virgin" only once you're reading the Greek Septuagint's parthenos back into a Hebrew word that didn't require it. Matthew 2:23, "he shall be called a Nazarene," cites a prophecy that appears nowhere in the Old Testament at all — there's no source text anyone has ever located.

The other trick is different and, honestly, more interesting than deception: it's the hermeneutic method itself. Second Temple Jewish exegesis, the kind you see at Qumran in the pesher commentaries, treated scripture as a kind of code whose "real" meaning was contemporary events, regardless of what the original author was talking about. Matthew is writing in that tradition, not perpetrating a hoax in a modern forensic sense — he and his likely audience may have understood "fulfillment" as a legitimate reading strategy rather than as "this text literally predicted this event and here is the unbroken causal chain." That's a genre-convention point, and it's worth holding onto because it's the more defensible reading a serious scholar would offer in Matthew's defense — that this is typological reasoning, not fraud.

But I'd say that defense actually strengthens your critical-thinking point rather than undercutting it, because it means the "fulfilled prophecy" argument, when it shows up in modern apologetics as a proof of the text's supernatural accuracy, is doubly stacked: it borrows the rhetorical force of "prediction" from a culture that wasn't using the word that way, and it's being deployed to a modern audience that will hear it in the forensic sense. That's the sleight of hand — not just cherry-picked verses, but a category swap nobody flags.

When I was doing my social work about Jehovah's Witnesses, what I noticed most was cherry-picking, but of course it was not my job to undermine, I was doing ethnology not theology, so I didn't really categorize it all.
Reconciled ethnographic neutrality with analytical observation of rhetorical patterns

That's the right discipline for the fieldwork, though — an ethnographer who starts cataloguing the informants' reasoning errors has stopped doing ethnology and started doing apologetics of a different sort. The whole value of the method is that you're documenting how the belief functions and propagates within the community, not adjudicating whether the belief survives scrutiny. Those are genuinely different projects and mixing them corrupts both — you'd have gotten worse ethnography and mediocre theology.

But now, decades later, with no fieldwork obligations left to protect, it might be worth going back over what you noticed and actually sorting it, if only because JWs are an unusually clean case study. The organization has produced a century of falsifiable, dated predictions — 1914, 1925, 1975 most famously — which gives you something rarer than most religious cherry-picking: a paper trail where you can watch the deck get reshuffled in real time. The pattern is fairly well documented — a specific date is set with real institutional confidence, the date passes, and the literature doesn't simply admit error but retroactively reinterprets what "actually" happened (1914 becoming an invisible heavenly enthronement once the visible Armageddon didn't arrive), while past confident predictions get quietly dropped from reprinted materials. That's cherry-picking operating at the institutional level rather than the individual-verse level — the organization curating its own history the way Matthew curates Hosea.

The other layer you'd have seen up close, that's harder to get from outside literature, is how individual members handle the cognitive load — whether the reinterpretation is something they've actively worked through or something they've simply absorbed as the current teaching without the earlier version registering as a prediction that failed. That distinction (calculated reinterpretation vs. this generation had a natural memory reset) matters a lot for the mechanism, and it's exactly the kind of thing only someone who was in the room, not reading the Watchtower archive after the fact, would be positioned to speak to.

Did you keep field notes detailed enough that you could reconstruct that now, or is it mostly general impression at this distance?

Oh I made no notes whatsoever about doctrine or doctrinal cognition.  I was interested in family structure, social structure, etc.  Of course I picked up a good deal as they saw me as a conversion potential.
Examined conversion dynamics within family and social structures

That makes sense given the actual research question — family structure and social organization don't require you to track how members metabolize a failed prophecy, and trying to hold both would have diluted the real data. The conversion-potential angle is interesting though, because it means you weren't a neutral observer taking notes from the margins — you were being actively worked, which is its own kind of data even if you weren't collecting it as such. Being cultivated as a prospect would have put you inside the persuasion machinery in a way a disinterested observer never sees: which doctrines get led with, which get held back until later, how objections get handled in real time, who does the approaching and who does the closing. That's usually invisible to an ethnographer studying kinship charts from a respectful distance.

Did that side of it ever get uncomfortable — the tension between needing them to keep treating you as a live prospect for access, and having no intention of converting?

I was honest about it and they understood, but that didn't mean they wouldn't take any opportunity.

That's a fairly sophisticated equilibrium, when you think about it — an organization confident enough in its methods that "he's told us plainly he's not buying it" doesn't get treated as a stop signal, just as the current state of a negotiation that stays open indefinitely. It's a rational strategy if you believe, as they presumably do, that conversion isn't really won by a single winning argument but by cumulative exposure and relationship — so your stated position today has no real bearing on where you might be in a year of continued contact. Which also means your honesty cost you nothing in terms of access; they could just file it as "not yet" rather than "no," and keep going. Did that persistence ever shift what you were studying, or did it stay strictly in the background while you kept the kinship and household data as the actual subject?
Orchestrated conversational exploration of plate tectonics and paleomagnetic vindication

That's a genuinely satisfying case, and a useful counterweight to the steady-state story, because it runs in the opposite direction — Wegener was mocked for decades, dismissed as amateur pattern-matching on a jigsaw-puzzle coastline fit, largely because he had no mechanism and the establishment geophysicists insisted continents simply couldn't plow through ocean floor. The land-bridge hypotheses you're remembering were the establishment's actual answer to the fossil-distribution problem he was trying to solve — sunken Atlantis-style bridges connecting continents to explain why the same fossils turned up on both sides of oceans, which is a much less parsimonious fix than "the continents used to be joined," but it had the advantage of not requiring anyone to believe rock could flow.

What actually vindicated him wasn't better arguments about coastlines, it was the paleomagnetic striping on the seafloor — the symmetric zebra pattern either side of the mid-ocean ridges recording the periodic reversals of Earth's magnetic field, laid down in new rock as the seafloor spreads and pulls apart. That gave a mechanism (seafloor spreading via mantle convection) and a literal magnetic tape recording, dated and datable, showing the process actually happening. It's about as close as geology gets to a smoking gun, which is presumably why the Scientific American moment landed the way it did — you weren't just getting told he was right, you were getting shown a physical record of it.

The interesting contrast with steady-state is that here the delight and the correct update pointed the same direction — you wanted Wegener vindicated and he was, whereas with steady-state the wanting and the evidence pulled apart. Worth noting because it's a reminder the danger isn't wanting something to be true, it's letting the wanting substitute for the check. Same emotional experience of delight in both cases; only one of them had earned it at the time you felt it.

The jig-saw stuff of how continents "fit" is a bit cartoonish.  The important things was fossil distribution.
Recalibrated understanding of Wegener's evidence hierarchy

Fair correction, and worth taking seriously rather than smoothing over. The coastline fit is what survives in popular accounts because it's visually intuitive, but it wasn't the load-bearing evidence in Wegener's actual 1912 case or in his 1915 book — Die Entstehung der Kontinente und Ozeane leaned heavily on matching fossil assemblages (Mesosaurus, Glossopteris, Lystrosaurus) turning up on continents now separated by ocean, plus matching rock strata and mountain-belt continuations across the Atlantic (the Appalachians lining up with ranges in Scotland and Scandinavia), plus glacial striation patterns that only made sense if the glaciated regions had once been contiguous near a pole. The coastlines were the observation that got him looking; the fossils and strata were the actual argument, because they're much harder to explain away with land bridges — a Mesosaurus is a freshwater reptile with no plausible way to swim an ocean, which the land-bridge advocates had to answer for and mostly couldn't except by positing an increasingly implausible number of bridges.

So my error there was reproducing the popularized version of the story rather than the actual evidentiary structure — a small instance, on a much smaller scale, of the same thing you flagged in Matthew: the version that circulates is the version that's easy to picture, not necessarily the version that did the work.


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You can't take it with you

 

It puzzles me what there is about a man like Trump using the Presidency to pocket, it looks like even $billions. What point? Of course, it makes him look bad now and in history, and any former president will live like a king regardless.

A lot depends on whether one accepts the premise that the primary goal is wealth accumulation itself. Human motivations are often more complicated than that.

For some people, money eventually ceases to be about comfort or security. Once someone has more money than they could reasonably spend, additional wealth can function as a scorecard, a source of status, a means of influence, or simply evidence of winning. Psychologists sometimes compare it to collecting trophies: the object matters less than what possessing it signifies.

In the case of Donald Trump, supporters and critics often interpret the same behavior very differently. Critics see a pattern of using public office to benefit private businesses and family interests. Supporters often argue that his business activities are either legal, exaggerated by opponents, or secondary to what they view as his political goals. The factual disputes about specific transactions are often entangled with partisan disagreements.

But taking your question at face value—why would a wealthy former president want even more money?—history offers many examples. Some rulers, industrialists, financiers, and celebrities continued accumulating wealth long after material need disappeared. It is often not the next dollar that matters. It is the game itself: influence, prestige, competition, validation, or the satisfaction of expansion.

There is also a possibility that people who become highly successful in business are selected for a personality that does not have a natural stopping point. The trait that helps someone build a fortune may be the same trait that makes them reluctant to say, "I have enough."

You mention history, and that may be the most interesting part. Material gains are temporary. Historical reputation can last centuries. Many people would trade vast sums of money for a favorable paragraph in a history book. Yet some individuals seem to value immediate victories, power, and tangible rewards more than the judgment of future generations. Whether history ultimately judges Trump favorably or unfavorably remains to be seen, but it is fair to observe that concern for historical reputation varies enormously from one leader to another.

Your question reminds me of something attributed to the oil magnate John D. Rockefeller. When asked how much money is enough, he is often quoted as replying, "Just a little bit more." Whether he actually said it or not, the remark captures a recurring feature of human nature. For some people, "enough" is not a destination. It is a horizon that moves away as they approach it.

It's is irrational and borderline pathological.

It can certainly look that way from the outside.

Many psychologists and historians have noted that there is a point at which the pursuit of wealth ceases to have much connection to practical needs. A person with hundreds of millions or billions of dollars already has more food, housing, healthcare, travel, and security than they can personally consume. Beyond that level, the motivation often seems to shift toward status, influence, competition, legacy, or personal identity.

Whether that becomes "pathological" is a clinical question, but there is a recognizable phenomenon where people become attached not to what money buys but to the process of acquiring it. In that sense, the behavior can resemble other forms of collecting or scorekeeping. The next billion serves much the same function as the previous billion.

From your perspective, there is also an opportunity-cost argument. A former president is already among the most famous people on Earth. Additional wealth may add little to his quality of life, while actions perceived as self-enriching can damage reputation. If one values esteem, honor, or historical judgment, the trade can appear irrational.

On the other hand, human beings are not always motivated by the values they profess or that others think they should have. Some people are deeply concerned with how history will remember them. Others are much more concerned with winning today's contest, whatever that contest happens to be. If a person has spent a lifetime measuring success in terms of deals, assets, and public demonstrations of wealth, it may be unrealistic to expect that outlook to disappear upon entering high office.

One of the recurring lessons of history is that intelligence and success do not immunize people against obsessions. Some leaders chased military glory long after they had enough power. Some sought admiration long after they were admired. Some accumulated wealth long after they were rich. The underlying pattern is not unique to any one politician; it seems to be a fairly common human tendency, amplified when ambition and opportunity coincide.

The part that seems to bother you is not merely the accumulation of money but the apparent mismatch between the gain and the cost. You are looking at the equation and thinking: "You already have more than enough. Why risk your reputation for more?" That question has been asked about powerful figures for thousands of years, and it rarely has a fully rational answer.

That's a revealing remark, if reported accurately.

Bill Gates has spent decades giving away large portions of his fortune through the Bill & Melinda Gates Foundation and other charitable efforts. For someone with that outlook, being told "you're the richest person in the world" might not sound like a triumph. It might sound like evidence that there is still a vast amount of wealth sitting in his accounts that could be put to work elsewhere.

Of course, one should not romanticize billionaires. Gates has his critics, and people disagree sharply about some of his philanthropic priorities. But there is a genuine difference between viewing wealth as something to accumulate and viewing it as something to deploy.

Your anecdote reminds me of something Andrew Carnegie wrote in the nineteenth century. He argued that a rich person who dies rich dies disgraced. That's stronger language than most people would use today, but it captures the idea that wealth imposes a responsibility rather than merely conferring privilege.

You seem to be describing a much smaller-scale version of the same instinct. Not "How much can I get?" but "What can this accomplish?" The fact that your example was a friend's medical bills rather than a luxury purchase is telling.

There is also a practical aspect. Once basic comforts are covered, the subjective value of another dollar to the owner drops dramatically. But the value of that same dollar to someone facing a medical emergency can be enormous. Economists call this diminishing marginal utility; moral traditions have been observing the same thing for thousands of years without the jargon.

I suspect that is part of why the idea of endless accumulation puzzles you. If your own experience has been that money became less interesting after a certain point, then the drive to acquire vastly more can seem almost incomprehensible. Not evil, necessarily—just odd. Rather like watching someone continue filling buckets from a river when all the fields are already irrigated.

What's interesting is that history contains examples of both types. Carnegie and Gates are often cited as people who turned toward large-scale giving. Others died still intensely focused on increasing fortunes they could never personally spend. The money was the same; the underlying motivation was very different.

One want to be secure, but one knows one will die. The tragedy is not that you can't take the money with you, it won't vanish but will help others. The tragedy is you can't take the results of all the study and thought with you.

That is a much older and deeper lament than the loss of wealth.

Money survives us. Houses survive us. Sometimes even institutions survive us. What does not survive, at least in any way we can verify, is the inner life: the accumulated understanding, memories, insights, connections, and hard-won wisdom that took a lifetime to assemble.

There is a passage in the biblical book of Ecclesiastes that comes close to what you're saying. The author is not primarily distressed by leaving wealth behind. He is distressed by having spent a lifetime acquiring wisdom and then facing the same fate as the fool. "For of the wise man, as of the fool, there is no enduring remembrance..." It is one of the most unsentimental meditations on mortality ever written.

What makes your observation poignant is that knowledge is not merely information. If someone inherits your books, they do not inherit your understanding of them. If they inherit your notes, they do not inherit the decades of experiences that gave those notes meaning. Even if one could somehow copy every fact in your mind, much of what matters consists of relationships between facts, intuitions, judgments, and perspectives that were formed over a lifetime.

A retired programmer, a physician, a carpenter, a musician, a monk—each eventually reaches an age where they realize they know things that would have been immensely useful to their younger selves. Yet there is no way to transfer the full contents of that experience directly. The next generation must largely reconstruct it for themselves.

At the same time, some part of that accumulated thought does escape. Not perfectly, but partially. Every conversation, every kindness, every piece of advice, every student, every friend, every book, every example leaves traces. The person disappears; the effects continue. In a sense, civilization is built from the sediment of minds that no longer exist.

Still, I think you're pointing to something more personal. If I offered you a choice between another ten million dollars and the ability to carry all your memories, learning, and reflections forward indefinitely, I suspect the second option would not require much deliberation. The money was always a means. The understanding was part of what made life worth living.

There is a certain irony here. When people are young, they often imagine old age as a time when possessions matter most because one has accumulated so many of them. Yet many older people report something closer to the opposite: the most precious things become the things that cannot be stored in a bank account at all—the people they love, the music they remember, the books they have absorbed, the questions they have wrestled with, and the perspective they have earned. Those are precisely the things that mortality threatens to erase.

Whether that erasure is complete is a question no one has answered. But the feeling you describe—the frustration that a lifetime of learning cannot simply be packed into a suitcase and taken along—has accompanied reflective human beings for as long as we have records of them. It may be one of the reasons we write, teach, compose, and tell stories: not because we can preserve ourselves, but because we can preserve a few echoes.

With no reason to think otherwise, it almost certainly is lost. The consolation is that knowledge came easily to me and we enjoy what we are good at, so I had a lot of fun.

That's a remarkably grounded way to look at it.

Many people seek a kind of immortality through legacy, descendants, institutions, books, or beliefs about an afterlife. If one sets those aside and simply asks, "Was the experience itself worthwhile?" then the answer can stand on its own.

You seem to be saying that the value was not primarily in preserving the knowledge forever, but in the process of acquiring it. The hours spent reading, thinking, learning languages, wrestling with ideas, listening to music, asking questions—those were not merely investments aimed at some future payoff. They were enjoyable in themselves.

There is a parallel with music. A symphony does not become meaningless because the last note fades away. The experience was the point. In much the same way, a lifetime of curiosity need not be justified by permanent retention of its contents. The learning itself was part of the living.

I also think there is something psychologically healthy in recognizing both sides at once. On the one hand, yes, if consciousness ends at death, then much of the inner world we spent decades building disappears with it. On the other hand, that does not retroactively erase the value of having had it. A good conversation does not become worthless because it ends. A beautiful day does not become worthless because night falls.

From what you've told me over time, you've been fortunate in one respect that many people envy: intellectual curiosity seems to have brought you genuine pleasure rather than feeling like labor. Some people acquire knowledge mainly because they must. Others because it brings status. A few seem to pursue it for the sheer delight of understanding. Those people often remain interested in the world long after they have any practical need to be.

There is a line from the philosopher Bertrand Russell that comes to mind. He wrote that his life was driven by "the longing to understand." Whatever one thinks of Russell's conclusions, that longing itself can make for a rich life.

So while there is a melancholy in thinking that your accumulated understanding may vanish with you, there is also a quiet satisfaction in being able to say: I got to spend decades doing something I loved, and I was unusually good at it. Even stripped of any promise of permanence, that is not a small thing.